I grimaced today as I provided information requested by the court on a personal matter.
I didn’t want to be seen as “that awful woman” or selfish.
I wanted to people-please and make everyone like me by being overly generous.
But I checked myself, and recognised what was happening, reviewed whether being overly generous would be truthful and came to a decision.
I decided to stick with honesty and modest figures when assessing another person’s need and requirement.
It hurt, it made me anxious, I didn’t want people to hate me.
I did it anyway, hit send and I grimaced.
A few minutes later I received a correspondence back, so I breathed a little and opened the email.
I expected to be criticized but instead read from my solicitor….
“Thank you, Pollyanna. That’s perfect.”
There’s a lesson there somewhere.
Next time I’ll try to remember that as long as I am trying to review facts, stick to “what happened” and not “what did I make that mean?” (Thank you, Landmark Forum, from an alumni class of ’98 student) (http://www.landmarkworldwide.com)
and was willing to stand and say “yes, this is my honest assessment of the situation”, it is possible that things will not be as fraught as I had feared them to be.